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I've been reading The Dispossessed by Ursula le Guin so. Anarchist societies. 

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(aka, a work in progress that is probably only interesting to me because I've been trying to write something about my family for years and have never managed it) 

(aka, this is nowhere near done but I wanted to prove I am actually still writing and alive) 


my father was born in 1944,

a war child. 


my mother was born in 1957,

six months before sputnik was sent

into the void.


eucalyptus leaves are slicks

of fragrant summer in every december

of every year I have ever lived. my

limbs grow long, my freckles

fade, my blood’s still

salted, underneath.


i am thirteen and it’s

winter. my mother calcifies, her eyes a

vacant burn, and i realise that we hold

our shoulders the exact same way

when we're mad.


i pull the trigger.

black powder is in my lungs.

“good,” dad says.

the rifle slams back.

i breathe.


i read mum’s poetry, haikus,

written before i was born. delicate

and real like nasturtiums in the

dirt. i am seventeen and aching. i reach 

my hands out and try to touch her history,

her shining dark story, woman who is half me

and three times herself, but she eludes me,

tells me, dinner’s ready. i can never find anything these days,

i cannot eat the food she cooks.


he talks to me about politics,


he tells me he remembers looking

out the window and seeing his father come

home. he must have been, what, one,

but he says he remembers the man

in khaki, walking up the suburban street,

backpack on his back.

coming home, doctor, soldier,


coming home. australia stretched out thin,

hot and swollen and sad, and the

fathers coming home.


he looks away, the lines under his

eyes as familiar as the press of an old gun

against my collarbone, as familiar

as the smell of my sister’s cigarette

across the ruined cities of

christmas lunch.


mum would have been an astrophysicist,

if she hadn’t started having babies

at nineteen.  in the old photos of her she

stares and her eyes are bright and blue like

stars. mine are

muddy, like dad’s,


i have his feet, and maybe

i have his chin, steady and strong like him.

but i cry when i think about grandpa

walking down that street, that suburban street,

every single time i weep –


and my dad’s

only ever cried once that i know of,


listening to an old record

the night that grandma died.

some military march, drums

tight and thin and true.


he’s old. it breaks my

heart. and i will never tell him




saltpetre, charcoal.

trust in god and keep

your powder dry.


i am six. he puts the air rifle

against my shoulder, and tells me to

pull the trigger tight.


i do. 

  • Mood: Angsty
  • Listening to: Kids - MGMT
  • Reading: The Wind's Twelve Quarters - Ursula le Guin
  • Watching: Masters of Sex
  • Playing: FFVII
  • Eating: shortbread
  • Drinking: tea


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yesilm Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014
Thank you. :sun:
Meggie272 Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :heart:
thetaoofchaos Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014   Writer
I appreciate the :+fav:
Meggie272 Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem!
jade-pandora Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2014
:iconflowerheartplz: Thank you, Meg, for your enjoyment and for faving my poem, "Thrice"!
Meggie272 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
ah you are very welcome!
Braxton-T-Rutledge Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
Meggie272 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem. Sorry for the flood of notifications, I am a little behind on everyone's writing. 
Braxton-T-Rutledge Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014
aaaaand more thanks.
Meggie272 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm finally caught up! Thank YOU for all the writing. 
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